My ministry

Besides being a wife to my husband and a mother to my kids, my ministry in life is music ministry. It's still so amazing to me that the Lord chose to use me in this way. I can still remember the first time I sang in public. I was 12 years old and I was with my family at Magic Mountain. Back then, they had these singing booths set up. You could go into your own private booth and pick a song and sing your heart out like a "real" recording artist, while your version of the song was taped as a souvenir. I chose to sing "Anything For You" by Gloria Estefan (I know, I know...but remember it was 1989, so give me a break...) So after you record the song, you have the option of having your song played over the loud speakers for all to hear. So there I was in front of my whole family, scared to death wondering what my parents were going to think of my singing. To my amazement, they had nothing but good things to say. I remember on the car ride home, how proud my mom was and how she ranted and raved about how great she thought I sang. It felt so good to finally feel like I was good at something.

Fast forward 10 years later, I started attending Calvary Chapel Golden Springs with my then boyfriend, later to be husband, Jeff. I was sitting in the sanctuary one Sunday and they made an announcement that they would be holding choir auditions later that day. Now you have to understand, I totally loved singing, but I NEVER did it in public or sang in front of ANYONE. All I can say is that the Holy Spirit totally spoke to me that day, because, even as scared as I was, I went to the audition and made it! I loved being a part of something like that. I was using my talent to serve the Lord. It took me a long time to really see it as a talent and to really believe that I actually COULD sing.

Fast forward another 10 years (Wow, I'm getting old!), now I sing on a small worship team once a month at all three services in front of, at least, 2000 people. I actually don't get nervous when I'm up on that stage anymore. I try to sing every worship song to the Lord and let the audience just fade away. I focus on the words and the meaning of the song and I completely go to another place. It's funny because people who know me, know that I still won't sing on cue when someone asks to hear my voice, but the Lord definitely has helped me realize this gift He has given me. I can only hope that my voice is a "sweet smelling aroma" to Him, because that's all that matters to me. 'Til next time....